Artist statement

 

Chaos the dictionary defines this word as a state of utter confusion or disorder. Many people think of this as a party or like a car accident or something that happens. That you are in total shut down mode from doing your everyday functions because it’s just too erratic. You find it hard to breath, you just want whatever it is to just stop because nothing else in that moment is more important than trying to just hide and calm down.

When I was, brainstorming this word, I thought of when you get crushed in a group hug and it gets too much. It made me think of claustrophobia because when you’re with too many people or in a tight small space with no space where it feels like the walls are just closing in and you aren’t able to breath. It feels claustrophobia because there is nothing you can do in that moment but just shut down and try breathing and try to get back to when you were stable.

When planning to take this photo I could show claustrophobia. And I made another brain storm I thought of having a person in front of Bars. They would be holding on to them and I would be focusing more on her facial expressions. Because her facial expression would make the whole picture because then when you can see it you could feel the emotions of that person so you could feel that it was chaotic. The second idea I had was that, A person would be inside a box and I would make the box like it is closing in on them and they’re pushing the walls back and on the inside, I would have it so you could see the force that they were using to push back the walls. Because the walls were closing in on them.

The day of the shoot I has made sure that I knew exactly what I was doing. How I made my props is that I cut up a cardboard box and I wanted to have enough room for my subject to sit in but I didn’t want it to look so big that it didn’t make sense. So I used the second piece of cardboard and I cut that to make it be able to hold the sides where I cut to make it be able to fit my subject. Then using wrapping paper as the element so you could see my subject pushing on the walls of the box so you could see the force they were using to make the walls be pushed back so that they fell not clastrophobic. Then i decided to put a black paper behind and i also had my subject wear all black. Then when i shot i made them show me then pushing on the walls. But then i also thought it would be cool having them do others so we could see that they were having a chaotic time. I made them touch there hair and trying to shut there face off making it look like they were trying to pretend that they were in another world and that what was happening was going to be over as soon as possible.When i went to edit my photos i turned my Photos black because i felt liket the backround was already chaotice enough. The colors made it seem too intense so put it in black and white because you could all ready see that the person was already having a bad time so i thought im going to make it more sensitive to the viewer so i put it in black an white so you could see the contrast in depth so you could aslo sww the back ground and still know that they were having a problem. Thats how i found my idea for choas.